this story resinated so much with me. i am a science nerd myself and after the death of a close freind i realy struggled to come to turms with that. this book reminded me of what i whent throght and that is am abetter person becasue of this. this story is an accurate representation of a way that some people deal with greaf and how they deal with that is verry personal. the way that some people deal with the pain is by persuing rechlis behaviors like the use of rechreational drugs to numb the pain. this story was evocative without beeing to much for the reader to be abel to undersand and feel simplathy for the characters. her relationships are some of the most intresting that i have read in a long time because she has to brake throght her self to be able to establish connections with peopl over all i realy enjoyed this book.