I struggled

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Sadly this was a book I've had to put down.
Maybe I will pick it back up in the future but I started initially feeling a little bored of the story, then we got to the first flashback and I was suddenly introduced to a bout of Fatphobia.

Most girls were described as a good weight, beautiful and ideal...
The overweight character was described as pasty, overweight, unfashionable and then the MC went on to describe her judgement that the girl ate something that was high in calories in public when she obviously needed to lose weight.
This triggered a lot of emotions for me as I am someone who has had weight issues and in the past I have psychologically tormented myself with the belief that I wasn't allowed to eat in public or in front of people because they would judge me on my size and the level of healthiness the food I ate was.

Seeing it wrriten down almost confirmed that my biggest fears were actually true and that people did think this and I feel like I have been knocked down in confidence to a point where I'm scared of eating in front of someone again because of such a small comment

Fatphobia in books is not cute... The worst part is, I don't know how important 9tnis to the story as I had to stop, but at that moment it felt almost like a throwaway line and therefore unnecessary.