How It All Blew Up by Arvin Ahmadi is one of my most anticipated releases for 2020. I've been waiting so long for this book, so much so that I stayed up past midnight to read this 'First Impression' of the book after unfortunately losing out on an arc elsewhere. Even though I've only read 18 pages of this book, I know that I'm going to absolutely adore it, I love seeing peoples' perspectives on life and this is one I haven't had the honour of reading before. The material is very hard hitting even in the first few pages, and I feel like I can really connect with the main character and I want to know more of his story.